I can’t sleep in anymore and refuse to try to.
June 2013
9 posts
2. push yourself to fall asleep earlier - start with 11pm, then 10pm, then 9pm. wake up in the morning feeling re-energized and comfortable.
3. erase processed food from your diet. start with no lollies, chips, biscuits, then erase pasta, rice, cereal, then bread. use the rule that if a child couldn’t identify what was in it, you don’t eat it.
4. get into the habit of cooking yourself a beautiful breakfast. fry tomatoes and mushrooms in real butter and garlic, fry an egg, slice up a fresh avocado and squirt way too much lemon on it. sit and eat it and do nothing else.
5. stretch. start by reaching for the sky as hard as you can, then trying to touch your toes. roll your head. stretch your fingers. stretch everything.
6. buy a 1L water bottle. start with pushing yourself to drink the whole thing in a day, then try drinking it twice.
7. buy a beautiful diary and a beautiful black pen. write down everything you do, including dinner dates, appointments, assignments, coffees, what you need to do that day. no detail is too small.
8. strip your bed of your sheets and empty your underwear draw into the washing machine. put a massive scoop of scented fabric softener in there and wash. make your bed in full.
9. organise your room. fold all your clothes (and bag what you don’t want), clean your mirror, your laptop, vacuum the floor. light a beautiful candle.
10. have a luxurious shower with your favourite music playing. wash your hair, scrub your body, brush your teeth. lather your whole body in moisturiser, get familiar with the part between your toes, your inner thighs, the back of your neck.
11. push yourself to go for a walk. take your headphones, go to the beach and walk. smile at strangers walking the other way and be surprised how many smile back. bring your dog and observe the dog’s behaviour. realise you can learn from your dog.
12. message old friends with personal jokes. reminisce. suggest a catch up soon, even if you don’t follow through. push yourself to follow through.
14. think long and hard about what interests you. crime? sex? boarding school? long-forgotten romance etiquette? find a book about it and read it. there is a book about literally everything.
15. become the person you would ideally fall in love with. let cars merge into your lane when driving. pay double for parking tickets and leave a second one in the machine. stick your tongue out at babies. compliment people on their cute clothes. challenge yourself to not ridicule anyone for a whole day. then two. then a week. walk with a straight posture. look people in the eye. ask people about their story. talk to acquaintances so they become friends.
16. lie in the sunshine. daydream about the life you would lead if failure wasn’t a thing. open your eyes. take small steps to make it happen for you.” —
Sixteen Small Steps to Happiness
this made me happy just to read and think of everything i should start trying to do.
(via georgybaby)I dreamed that someone left me an $800 dollar tip with a note that said “because I wanted to”. There were all these news crews and the people who left it went on radio shows and so did I. I was grateful to the point of tears and it felt very real. So waking up from that was a huge bummer.
I fell back to sleep though and dreamed about visiting a big old house in the mountains. It was a version of my grandparents house except in my dream it was in the future and they had passed away. I was playing with kids in gardens and old sheds, it was a pretty scenic dream. Like lots of soft light and shit.
Then I was on my back porch watching a wedding reception unfold in the backyard across the alleyway from me. They started dancing to FIDLAR and it ruled and I decided I want good music at my wedding and not just crowd pleasers that some shitty dj plays.
The end!
May 2013
12 posts
Could not be more excited to see The Shins tonight holy shit.
Welp I just turned in the final assignment of my undergraduate career.
You are what you love and not what loves you back.